I can't believe it is over and I am actually quite glad that it is. This year has been marked by many famous celebrity but most notably for me my Aunt Jean and my Great Uncle Pepe. It really hurt to lose my aunt, she was like a mother to me.
I really wish I had used this to better document this year, but it truly was another blur of a year. I worked a assload and have few things to show for it. I kept my heart on my shoulder and have nothing to show for me.
I honestly expected more from the world and the people I consider cool in it. I blame myself somehow though. I could have taken many extra steps but it does suck having to run down that path alone. I def. think I have brought myself closer to death this year. But that gives me hope for next year.
This has been a year of me feeling my way through the karma circle. I broke a heart in '08 and my heart was toyed with this year. So that shit better have evened out or I will be pissed.
I must say that this has been a good for people experiencing me. My job def helped that. I am glad that I was able to make assloads of people smile for the most simplistic shit. I want the complicated smiles though. I want to say I am a merry jester, but too often i feel like shit when I am done like a sad clown.
Lots of summertime baseball a chance to scream as loud as needed. That was good.
But man when I went out and partied I did it like a rockstar. Proud of myself for being able to make a good time anytime i feel the need to.I just need people to need me.
I did a lot this year being fueled by pure and concentrated anger, just imagine if I woke up to a loving smile every morning. I need that this year.
I am proud that I live for this year.
Time to finish this beer and blur this beer.
Year.
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